Hi, I’m Sarah. I absolved the preperatory course ‘Filmscoring and Production’ at Musicube Academy and now I am a first year student for Composition for Film and Theatre. In this blog I’m gonna share my personal experience as a student at ArtEZ in Arnhem.
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April weather can be really tricky. A second it is raining and the next you sit in the light of the beautiful sun. You can never predict it cause it is so unreliable. I experienced the same thing in Arnhem the last month. Sometimes during a day we had hail, rain and sun almost at the same time.
This reminded me of a thing I also experienced a lot the last month especially during practicing for my cello lessons. Some days I wake up and it seems like I never did something else in my life than playing the cello (I’m still a beginner of course). Another day I sit in front of my cello and quit after a few minutes cause nothing is sounding like I want it to.
First I tried to find reasons. Maybe my bow doesn’t have the same tension than yesterday or the hight of the end pin is not the same. Sometimes I believe that my bow doesn’t have enough rosin or even that the wood of my instrument is different because of the temperature or humidity or something else.
When this happens I can trick myself a little. I play standing and somehow it almost always works. Even though it never feels like on my ‘good’ days. But most times I just have to put my cello away and do something else cause I don’t wanna train something that’s not right. Maybe on some days I have too much tension in my arm or my shoulder or in my hand and this could lead to a false posture.
I stopped looking for reasons when I found out that this is the same with composing (not very often and it is not that obvious either). Somedays I don’t even realise the time passing by and on other days it doesn’t really flow out of me. Of course I can always write something (and most of the time I still like it) but it doesn’t sound as fluent as on a ‘good’ day.
So sometimes I feel like I have April weather inside of me. One day the sun is shining and I can go out and do a lot of things. And another day I have to deal with snow or even hail so I just stay inside and do nothing 😀
This is perfectly normal. You can barely find someone who is the same everyday. But with a steady routine and a lot of practice you can learn to deal with it. Get to know yourself and find out what your way to ‘trick yourself’ is. Maybe you change the room you’re working in or you change the way you are working.
If nothing is helping the best thing you can do is stop. If it doesn’t feel good you sometimes just need a break (go for a walk or something). You can also continue but take everything like it is. Don’t judge your work and maybe look at it a few days later. Your whole perspective will change and maybe you’ll really like it 😛 When you don’t judge you take away the pressure of achieving something so your mind is more free to create something.
You can force yourself through it to learn that you can still do something but don’t expect anything from it. See it more as a training to get a solid routine than writing your master piece. If you are aware of these situations and you know how to deal with them it will be a lot easier to get through them when you have to do a job that has a deadline or even a test at university.
I also learned that the more often you write the easier it will get. You will get more connected to your creativity and you don’t have to work hard to reach it somehow somewhere inside of you.
Try to find a way to get the best out of yourself (I mean being healthy, happy and creative of course 😉 )!
All the best, Sarah